Now I am a few days late on this post (11 to be exact), but C is now 7 months old, I am constantly amazed by how much children learn and do each month, they have a little help from the people around them, but for the most part they start teaching themselves things. When I started doing tummy time with C he would scream and freak out, then around the 4-5 month mark, he was rolly polly tummy to back, back to tummy, without any trouble.
Around the 6 month mark he was able to have someone sit him up, and push himself back, he would get up on his hands and knees, but no forward motion.
After our trip to Canada, he did a quick forward motion towards my sister, which was his first successful launch. Then I sat on the ground and coaxed him to come forward towards me, now he is up, and going forward, and can get himself up to sitting position. As for the teeth, he is finally getting a tooth, he has been cutting these teeth for some time now, I can't wait to see that 1 tooth smile, for now he bites and I can feel it, but it's not out yet.
Here's to hoping it comes soon, because these 2 am wake ups aren't the best, but I don't mind.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
life changes....
So I was thinking to myself recently "wow, it's been 5 years since I was left alone in Ireland by those girls who were supposed to be my friends". I firstly can't believe 5 years have gone by this quickly. When it all first happened, I felt like my life was over, and I was hoping I could regain their trust and their friendship and they would forgive me for a mistake I made.
Little did I know that 5 years later, my life was a lot better off without them. When everything went down, I felt sad, angry, awful and didn't know what I would do without these "friends" in my life. I wanted so badly to reverse everything that I did just to have them back in my life. I started to realize afterwards that no matter how bad what I did was though, that they had no right to leave me alone in Ireland the way they did.
Here is why I am happy by the actions that they took.
I learned that being by myself isn't always that bad. While I was ditched in Ireland, I met an awesome girl named Amanda, we made a friendship, and we keep in touch. We haven't hung out since then, but she lives in California, so who knows, maybe someday? I re-established a solid friendship with my friend Karen. We started hanging out more, and she (as well as her sister) became some of my best friends. I've gotten to see their relationships flourish, as well as be a part in big events in their lives.
I traveled to Europe more often on my own after that. I made an awesome friend from South Africa who I traveled with back to Ireland, and someday maybe I will be able to visit her in South Africa.
Then here is the big one, I managed to meet my husband while on one of my overseas trip.
Had I still been friends with them, I may have never taken that trip to Oktoberfest, I may have never met him in that Hostel in London and my life would not be what it is today.
So maybe I should thank them for treating me as badly as they did on that trip.
So here it goes....Thanks to you 3 ladies I now have;
Friendships with so many amazing people, and I worked at it, I know not to abuse the friendship, and I truly care for all of the friends I have.
I have a husband who I love, and may have not met had it not been for you.
And last but not least, I have a wonderful son, I wouldn't have him had things been different, so I wouldn't change what I did for anything in the world.
If we had all stayed friends, I may not have all of these things, so thank you for giving up on me the way you did, because I learned a big lesson from this, and now I have so much more to be thankful for.
Little did I know that 5 years later, my life was a lot better off without them. When everything went down, I felt sad, angry, awful and didn't know what I would do without these "friends" in my life. I wanted so badly to reverse everything that I did just to have them back in my life. I started to realize afterwards that no matter how bad what I did was though, that they had no right to leave me alone in Ireland the way they did.
Here is why I am happy by the actions that they took.
I learned that being by myself isn't always that bad. While I was ditched in Ireland, I met an awesome girl named Amanda, we made a friendship, and we keep in touch. We haven't hung out since then, but she lives in California, so who knows, maybe someday? I re-established a solid friendship with my friend Karen. We started hanging out more, and she (as well as her sister) became some of my best friends. I've gotten to see their relationships flourish, as well as be a part in big events in their lives.
I traveled to Europe more often on my own after that. I made an awesome friend from South Africa who I traveled with back to Ireland, and someday maybe I will be able to visit her in South Africa.
Then here is the big one, I managed to meet my husband while on one of my overseas trip.
Had I still been friends with them, I may have never taken that trip to Oktoberfest, I may have never met him in that Hostel in London and my life would not be what it is today.
So maybe I should thank them for treating me as badly as they did on that trip.
So here it goes....Thanks to you 3 ladies I now have;
Friendships with so many amazing people, and I worked at it, I know not to abuse the friendship, and I truly care for all of the friends I have.
I have a husband who I love, and may have not met had it not been for you.
And last but not least, I have a wonderful son, I wouldn't have him had things been different, so I wouldn't change what I did for anything in the world.
If we had all stayed friends, I may not have all of these things, so thank you for giving up on me the way you did, because I learned a big lesson from this, and now I have so much more to be thankful for.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
hoooooooot
Lately, I've been finding myself becoming more fascinated with Owls.
My sister and I bought pyjamas from Target that had Owls all over the pants, and since then I think I've become a bit obsessed.
I bought C several outfits with Owls on them, because they don't make a lot of stuff in my size. I've even considered that maybe our next baby will get the Owl treatment (It's a toss up between Owls or Elephants)
I thought to myself I would look up the symbolism of them. Some websites said they were a "messenger, bringer of wisdom and clairvoyance".
I know that my sister was woken up out of sleep one night by the hooting of an Owl. This was shortly after Jackson died, when she researched it she came across the symbolism of them. It's like it was a sign was being given to her and her boyfriend from Jackson.
I guess I've just always thought they were beautiful animals. I even did a speech on them when I was in grade 4.
My sister and I bought pyjamas from Target that had Owls all over the pants, and since then I think I've become a bit obsessed.
I bought C several outfits with Owls on them, because they don't make a lot of stuff in my size. I've even considered that maybe our next baby will get the Owl treatment (It's a toss up between Owls or Elephants)
I thought to myself I would look up the symbolism of them. Some websites said they were a "messenger, bringer of wisdom and clairvoyance".
I know that my sister was woken up out of sleep one night by the hooting of an Owl. This was shortly after Jackson died, when she researched it she came across the symbolism of them. It's like it was a sign was being given to her and her boyfriend from Jackson.
I guess I've just always thought they were beautiful animals. I even did a speech on them when I was in grade 4.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Random Laughter
Every so often I find myself doing silly things I wouldn't normally do, mostly because I know it will make C laugh, and the laughter of a child is probably the one thing that can make me smile even if I'm not in the mood to do so.
The other night, he was refusing to go to bed, and he screamed and screamed, and then suddenly he stopped, and looked at me, so I started singing him "Old McDonald had a farm". The kid lost his mind, it was suddenly the funniest thing going on in the room.
I realize that I DO have to put him to sleep, but if I find my chance to make him laugh, I will do it. Today I was playing a game on my phone, and C was rolling around on the floor, getting frustrated with the whole "crawling" shenanigans, then I heard him giggling again, when I looked up this time, he had his mirror on the floor and thought that his reflection was the funniest thing going on in the room.
I realized that I need to have my video camera on me at all times. These moments of laughter are sometimes fleeting, and are usually followed by screaming fits if he's especially tired. I get them in while I can, because sometimes mommy can't make him laugh like daddy can. I'll take what I can get.
....sometimes when it's late at night, and I drift off to sleep, I think of his sad crying face, and I laugh, because no matter what he's doing, happy, sad, angry, tired, he makes me laugh, and I know how lucky I am to have him.
The other night, he was refusing to go to bed, and he screamed and screamed, and then suddenly he stopped, and looked at me, so I started singing him "Old McDonald had a farm". The kid lost his mind, it was suddenly the funniest thing going on in the room.
I realize that I DO have to put him to sleep, but if I find my chance to make him laugh, I will do it. Today I was playing a game on my phone, and C was rolling around on the floor, getting frustrated with the whole "crawling" shenanigans, then I heard him giggling again, when I looked up this time, he had his mirror on the floor and thought that his reflection was the funniest thing going on in the room.
I realized that I need to have my video camera on me at all times. These moments of laughter are sometimes fleeting, and are usually followed by screaming fits if he's especially tired. I get them in while I can, because sometimes mommy can't make him laugh like daddy can. I'll take what I can get.
....sometimes when it's late at night, and I drift off to sleep, I think of his sad crying face, and I laugh, because no matter what he's doing, happy, sad, angry, tired, he makes me laugh, and I know how lucky I am to have him.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Missing Out
Living here I've begun to realize something, but then again I've always know it. I'm missing out on so much at home.
I saw pictures of my friends 1st birthday party for her son, and I saw all of my friends in the pictures and thought to myself "I wish I was there, I missed out on seeing him turn 1". I won't get to be there when my friends start having kids, and when new nieces or nephews start coming into this world.
It really really sucks. I have friends down here with kids, but it's not quite the same thing. I didn't make these friends on my own, I got them through my husband, so I don't feel like I quite "earned" them the way I normally would with other friends.
the end
I saw pictures of my friends 1st birthday party for her son, and I saw all of my friends in the pictures and thought to myself "I wish I was there, I missed out on seeing him turn 1". I won't get to be there when my friends start having kids, and when new nieces or nephews start coming into this world.
It really really sucks. I have friends down here with kids, but it's not quite the same thing. I didn't make these friends on my own, I got them through my husband, so I don't feel like I quite "earned" them the way I normally would with other friends.
the end
Thursday, September 9, 2010
stinging eyes
It never fails, my friends post videos every day, but once in a while they post the same video, and it's always for the Bob Marley song - "Three Little Birds". I have a hard time not clicking on it, because I am reminded instantly of Jackson when I hear it. I don't seek it out by myself, because it's too hard to hear it and I don't want to do that to myself, but when someone else posts it, I feel like it's ok, maybe today is the day I'm supposed to hear it.
Today, I couldn't do it, it was an adorable looking video, but I had to stop because it looked like happy little animal parents with their animal babies, so I shut it off.
I did send it to my sister. Not to hurt her, or make her sad, but so she could see it if she wanted to, or was ready to.
When I'm ready to, I will watch it, Linds, I hope it didn't make you sad that I sent it.
Love you.
Today, I couldn't do it, it was an adorable looking video, but I had to stop because it looked like happy little animal parents with their animal babies, so I shut it off.
I did send it to my sister. Not to hurt her, or make her sad, but so she could see it if she wanted to, or was ready to.
When I'm ready to, I will watch it, Linds, I hope it didn't make you sad that I sent it.
Love you.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
6 months!
Today Booger bear turned 6 months old, I had a "holy crap" kind of moment. I realized that I pushed him out 6 months ago, and time really has flown by. I remember holding him in my arms and thinking "oh you're so small, and you need me so much, I wonder how much you'll change." Well he still needs me, but, small? not so Much. When he was born he was 8lbs 2 ounces, and now he is a whopping 21 pounds 2 ounces. He is rolling around like a mad man, and as for his hatred of tummy time, that's gone too. I frequently find him sleeping on his tummy, or rolling onto it to look at the world from another angle.
He has ticklish spots under his arms and on his back, and standing (with our help) is his favourite hobby. He freaks out slightly if he is having a good time standing and I have to set him down to go do something. He naps in his crib finally, and I don't take as many mommy naps with him, I can also start giving him solid food now, YAY!!!! I've been waiting for 6 long months to finally give him something new, and now I'm having a hard time deciding what it should be.
He got his shots today, I think Andy and I were a little bit more upset then he was, but he still shed quite a few tears to make us feel bad. The rest of the day we spent hanging out, playing, and just trying to keep him from losing his mind if he felt any pain from his legs.
Now I'm looking forward to next month, because I get to fly home and visit with my family and friends (I miss all of you guys!). See you all soon.
And, as I always do, I choked back tears today when I realized that I've gotten to see my son do so much in such a short time, and I know that someone I love very very much doesn't get to do that, and it isn't fair, and it sucks. I know the answer will come, and we will know what took him from us, but that doesn't ever make me feel better and it won't change the fact that he's not with us anymore. Miss you Jackson.
He has ticklish spots under his arms and on his back, and standing (with our help) is his favourite hobby. He freaks out slightly if he is having a good time standing and I have to set him down to go do something. He naps in his crib finally, and I don't take as many mommy naps with him, I can also start giving him solid food now, YAY!!!! I've been waiting for 6 long months to finally give him something new, and now I'm having a hard time deciding what it should be.
He got his shots today, I think Andy and I were a little bit more upset then he was, but he still shed quite a few tears to make us feel bad. The rest of the day we spent hanging out, playing, and just trying to keep him from losing his mind if he felt any pain from his legs.
Now I'm looking forward to next month, because I get to fly home and visit with my family and friends (I miss all of you guys!). See you all soon.
And, as I always do, I choked back tears today when I realized that I've gotten to see my son do so much in such a short time, and I know that someone I love very very much doesn't get to do that, and it isn't fair, and it sucks. I know the answer will come, and we will know what took him from us, but that doesn't ever make me feel better and it won't change the fact that he's not with us anymore. Miss you Jackson.
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