So I have been slacking on my personal blog lately, pure laziness on my part. Andy had gone away on business from Sunday to Tuesday so it was just me and the babies, I spent most of my days trying to entertain them and then most nights cleaning, and organizing. I made Andy swear to me that he wouldn't let the house fall into disrepair (just kidding, it's not in disrepair its just messy) again. I want to become a more organized person, and while I don't care if my house is pinterest perfect, I would at least like it not to look like a laundry/toy monster came and barfed all over my living room. I also realise (after many conversations with my sister) that I need less "stuff". All my weight loss goals have been hard, but they have also made me realise that maybe sometimes it's not just weight that needs to be dealt with. I need to sort through all the clutter in the house and get rid of what I don't need. It seems like its getting easier to do this as I get older and I really hope that someday I can shake this monkey in my back (what's the monkeys name you ask? Oh his name is "keep this you might need it someday"). Both her and I are trying hard to part with items we were always told meant something, but to us they never did. If something means so much to one person but means nothing to someone else, then it's not fair to ask them to hold on to something they will never want or use. There is someone out there who may want it so let them get the chance to enjoy it. I don't want to keep feeling like the character from the labyrinth who carries all of her possessions/garbage on her back, so slowly but surely my resolution for the rest of this year, and the rest of the next year is to try and start parting with items that have no meaning or value to me. Whether it be clothes that no longer fit, books I will never read again, useless knick knacks, and personal items that were told to have sentimental value to me (but don't), they need to go.
Now that Ive gotten that off my chest, my other news is, I finally got past the 184 barrier, and while it was only 1 pound lost, it was still great to see that number on the scale on Sunday! Virtually all of my old clothes fit again, and what doesn't fit soon will. I'm still trying my wedding and engagement rings on every week. Each week they get closer and closer to fitting again, I can't wait until I can get them back on my fingers, it will be like getting married all over again!
I cannot wait for that day, and soon it will be my birthday and Gems 1st birthday AND Thanksgiving!!!
Friday, September 28, 2012
Friday, September 14, 2012
184
I missed last weeks post, but surprise surprise it was still 186, I wasn't able to weigh myself on Sunday as we were heading back home from Temple, so I did it this morning and came in at 184.
I feel excited but also frustrated with myself that it takes me a few weeks to lose 2 pounds. If I stuck to my weight watchers and didn't go over my points every week this wouldn't be the case but my lack of will power is terrible. In a month or so I will stop breastfeeding "Jebby" so that will drop my points down by 14, that will become a huge adjustment. I think I need to show Andy exactly how my weight watchers works, he understands the concept and knows it works on points, but I don't think he quite understands that "tacos, or hot dogs, or lasagna" for dinner is an absolute points massacre. I know they are easy and convenient, but to me it puts a big red X on my weight loss goals. Maybe that will be my new goal "teach my hubby the Dos' and Dont's of weight watchers". It's not his fault he doesn't know these things, I generally don't indulge him with the boring facts of weight loss. He doesn't need to join me on weight watchers but I do need him to walk through it with me and understand why sometimes I freak out over food decisions and why sometimes I want to meal plan more than just "throw together easy meals".
So that's what I will do.
On the positive note, the weather cooled off for a day and I Slipped on my jeans that I've never been able to wear. Guess what? no more muffin top! They fit and are slightly loose, yay!
Until Sunday I will cross my fingers for some sort of breakthrough weight loss.
I feel excited but also frustrated with myself that it takes me a few weeks to lose 2 pounds. If I stuck to my weight watchers and didn't go over my points every week this wouldn't be the case but my lack of will power is terrible. In a month or so I will stop breastfeeding "Jebby" so that will drop my points down by 14, that will become a huge adjustment. I think I need to show Andy exactly how my weight watchers works, he understands the concept and knows it works on points, but I don't think he quite understands that "tacos, or hot dogs, or lasagna" for dinner is an absolute points massacre. I know they are easy and convenient, but to me it puts a big red X on my weight loss goals. Maybe that will be my new goal "teach my hubby the Dos' and Dont's of weight watchers". It's not his fault he doesn't know these things, I generally don't indulge him with the boring facts of weight loss. He doesn't need to join me on weight watchers but I do need him to walk through it with me and understand why sometimes I freak out over food decisions and why sometimes I want to meal plan more than just "throw together easy meals".
So that's what I will do.
On the positive note, the weather cooled off for a day and I Slipped on my jeans that I've never been able to wear. Guess what? no more muffin top! They fit and are slightly loose, yay!
Until Sunday I will cross my fingers for some sort of breakthrough weight loss.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
186
Seriously, I am lacking on my updates, after posting my weight loss photos I thought to myself, "how do I follow up to that?". I guess there isn't anything that I can say or do to top that, but I can continue on my journey and keep everyone updated. It has been birthday party and baby shower central for the past month of August. Every weekend guarantees that I will be eating cake and other bad food so I've been careful not to go too nuts because I know each weekend I will get a treat (yay)!. I've been so tired lately, Baby girl is teething and sleeping horribly, yesterday I had to drop both babies off at playcare just to get a nap in. I couldn't function, which is highly unusual as I can make a pass even on my worst of days. A long weekend is coming up here so I am hoping to get some stuff around the house done. I am looking forward to September being over, but only because I am so excited for October!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Thursday, August 23, 2012
187
I just realised that today is Thursday and I still had not blogged about my weight loss, I also realised that I have yet to take my 50 pound picture!!! I will try and see if I can get one tommorrow, I usually ask Andy, but because he gets impatient I will just do it myself and take as many as I need too. It's a great milestone to hit as I had felt in the beggining that I would never get there. I've never felt like quitting, but when I saw the big picture, 50 pounds was a lot to take in and felt like it would take forever to lose.
I heard the old saying is "during pregnancy it takes you twice as long to take it off as it does to put it on". I guess I just whooped that saying in the ass, I didn't gain as much in my 2nd pregnancy as I did in my first, because I already knew that a 60+ weight gain was too much the first time around, so I was a bit more cautious. I also knew that once my 6 week appointment was over I would find a good kickboxing gym and start up again. The coach there is always commenting that he needs the weight loss pictures so he can show them to people and I really need to light a fire under my butt as well. I want people who go to that gym to see that "yes it is possible and yes I am a real person who comes here".
So, I can't give any promises, but I would like to have my pictures up for you wonderful readers tomorrow (especially since if I didn't you would have to wait until October when you see me :D)
I heard the old saying is "during pregnancy it takes you twice as long to take it off as it does to put it on". I guess I just whooped that saying in the ass, I didn't gain as much in my 2nd pregnancy as I did in my first, because I already knew that a 60+ weight gain was too much the first time around, so I was a bit more cautious. I also knew that once my 6 week appointment was over I would find a good kickboxing gym and start up again. The coach there is always commenting that he needs the weight loss pictures so he can show them to people and I really need to light a fire under my butt as well. I want people who go to that gym to see that "yes it is possible and yes I am a real person who comes here".
So, I can't give any promises, but I would like to have my pictures up for you wonderful readers tomorrow (especially since if I didn't you would have to wait until October when you see me :D)
Monday, August 13, 2012
188 (still)
No change from last weeks kick ass weight loss. Well technically I lost .6 pounds, but since I just go and round everything up I don't count it on my blog. I wasn't really expecting to lose too much weight this week since the week prior to that I lose 4 pound. I'm still quite happy with even getting to 188! I was getting ready to send stuff off to the goodwill, but Andy mentioned that there will be a community garage sale in September, so if we sign up I am thinking of selling some of my clothes that are in good condition, I will send the rest off as well as anything that doesn't sell at the garage sale.
I am hoping this week to have a bit more success since I am being careful. There seems to be a party going on each weekend in August, whether it be Birthdays (cakes, cupcakes, desserts) or Baby Showers (um, cakes, cupcakes, desserts) I have to be very careful. It feels like Saturday is always my make or break day because I have to weigh myself the next day so when I wake up Sunday morning and I know I've been eating sweets the day before I'm a little hesitant to weigh myself.
Also, what was I thinking starting this program on a Sunday, d'oh! Anyway I am just trying to focus on doing some good this week, and counting down the days until I go home for some Thanksgiving Turkey, less than 2 months away, I can taste the delicious Tim Hortons tea as we speak (it's doesn't taste the same when I make it). I am going to make sure to have some Harveys while I'm home too, and go shopping at Rickis, and Fabricland and any other Canadian store I don't get to frequent anymore...... Dammit October, GET HERE FASTER (except the part where I turn 30, you stay away).
I will make 2 exceptions for my food intake while I'm there, and then I will need to make sure I crack the whip on myself after that, no need to gain all 50 pounds back in one week (maybe I should make a meal plan to stick to the fridge at my moms house?)
I am hoping this week to have a bit more success since I am being careful. There seems to be a party going on each weekend in August, whether it be Birthdays (cakes, cupcakes, desserts) or Baby Showers (um, cakes, cupcakes, desserts) I have to be very careful. It feels like Saturday is always my make or break day because I have to weigh myself the next day so when I wake up Sunday morning and I know I've been eating sweets the day before I'm a little hesitant to weigh myself.
Also, what was I thinking starting this program on a Sunday, d'oh! Anyway I am just trying to focus on doing some good this week, and counting down the days until I go home for some Thanksgiving Turkey, less than 2 months away, I can taste the delicious Tim Hortons tea as we speak (it's doesn't taste the same when I make it). I am going to make sure to have some Harveys while I'm home too, and go shopping at Rickis, and Fabricland and any other Canadian store I don't get to frequent anymore...... Dammit October, GET HERE FASTER (except the part where I turn 30, you stay away).
I will make 2 exceptions for my food intake while I'm there, and then I will need to make sure I crack the whip on myself after that, no need to gain all 50 pounds back in one week (maybe I should make a meal plan to stick to the fridge at my moms house?)
Sunday, August 5, 2012
188 Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
That's all I would have posted, but I figured that wouldn't be much of a blog post. I weighed myself this morning, which is probably why I got 188 and not 190, but either way, I finally beat the 193 curse! My weight watchers app said "Hey, you fucking rock! set a new goal". Okay it didn't say that, but it did tell me to set a new goal. I set something a little more realistic this time and said 178. 10 pounds is an easier goal than going from the 210-190 goal that I set so many months ago. A few more pairs of my old capris fit, so that means the "saggy butt" I am experiencing with my current pair is almost over. My wedding and engagement rings are still tight and not fitting (and one almost got stuck, um that was scary getting it off my finger!) I am just so excited to have hit (what I think was) my pre-baby weight...give or take a few pounds. I can tell there are so differences from how my body was pre-babies vs post babies, it isn't shaped the way it used to be (any other mommies experiencing this? Either way I am so happy, and maybe when I hit that 50 pound weight loss I will post pictures (I actually took photos of my BEFORE, I didn't want to forget how hard I worked to get here). For friends and family who read my blog, I will spare you the "bra" pictures and just post me in my tank top and work out pants. That photo will hopefully come within the next few weeks as my overall loss has been 47 pounds.
Until then....
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
That's all I would have posted, but I figured that wouldn't be much of a blog post. I weighed myself this morning, which is probably why I got 188 and not 190, but either way, I finally beat the 193 curse! My weight watchers app said "Hey, you fucking rock! set a new goal". Okay it didn't say that, but it did tell me to set a new goal. I set something a little more realistic this time and said 178. 10 pounds is an easier goal than going from the 210-190 goal that I set so many months ago. A few more pairs of my old capris fit, so that means the "saggy butt" I am experiencing with my current pair is almost over. My wedding and engagement rings are still tight and not fitting (and one almost got stuck, um that was scary getting it off my finger!) I am just so excited to have hit (what I think was) my pre-baby weight...give or take a few pounds. I can tell there are so differences from how my body was pre-babies vs post babies, it isn't shaped the way it used to be (any other mommies experiencing this? Either way I am so happy, and maybe when I hit that 50 pound weight loss I will post pictures (I actually took photos of my BEFORE, I didn't want to forget how hard I worked to get here). For friends and family who read my blog, I will spare you the "bra" pictures and just post me in my tank top and work out pants. That photo will hopefully come within the next few weeks as my overall loss has been 47 pounds.
Until then....
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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